The obligatory "2013 is ending I have to reflect on it properly" post. Here we go.
To be honest, this hasn't really felt like the end of something as much as it's the beginning of something else. I leave for Kenya on January 2nd, so there goes that whole reflecting stage, taken up by shopping and packing and preparing for summer weather in the middle of the coldest month of Minnesota weather. It's the strangest thing. I have almost no desire to even celebrate the new year because that has been consuming my thoughts for the past couple weeks.
I'm preparing for healing, heartbreak, sunburn, friendships, and toilet trauma. I'm not prepared for school, American society, and not in the least prepared for celebrating new years the typical way. I sometimes feel like making a million little new years resolutions or one big unachievable one, but this year I just don't feel like it. And I don't think I will! So there. And that's okay.
I'm preparing for rest. For peace about my circumstances, for happiness in the moment, for loving people I'm surrounded by. I'm preparing to be uplifting, to be the one that comforts and encourages, to be the one that gives perspective and peace to myself and others.
This year has been hard. And incredibly busy. The busiest of my life. And I'm ready to start off the new year in peace and relaxation, in no need to hurry along, to do things the Kenyan way. Take your time to make things beautiful, take your time to make something you're proud of. This is what I want to learn this year. And there is no particular goal that goes along with this, just peace. This is what I want.
xoxo
